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| hhahahahahaa COUGH.
He is so cute.
but only the way He talks.
and the way He acts.
omg that's funny. XD
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| today: movies with alyssa and matt b and whoever else comes. : /
also: cleaning in order to go.
to eat: peeps, pizza, cookies, cheese nips, oreos.
to drink: green tea sobe, coca-cola.
what to wear: undecided.
makeup: yes.
need to do: straighten hair, clean, get dressed, eat.
okay, so, my spring break has so far been very boring.
i need to talk to my dad about this weekend. ._.
and if he is mean about it, then he has ruined my spring break. >:O
okbyee.
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| im in a really bad mood and it's everybody's fault.
>:O
ummm.....
i don't know, im just angry because i have parents who don't know the meaning of the word "freedom" and my best friend doesn't know the meaning of the word "can't".
actually, im sure she does. im just really bad at persuasion.
and getting away from everybody.
according to her anyways.
but for me, it's that i can't get away from my family and my parents and i can't DO anything unless i please them with good grades. i can't do ANYTHING unless my grades are like, freaking good. and i can't get my mother to understand that she doesn't exactly trust me.
like, it's obvious that she can't. because she can't even BELIEVE me when i say "i'm bringing up my grades." both her and my dad. if they need evidence that badly, how can they believe in god? i don't understand that. how do they go to church and praise freaking GOD if they can't even believe ME when i say "m bringing my grades up. stupid effing badminton made me get out of classes during big things like tests and notes and that's why i have bad grades. if you could just believe me and let me bring up my grades without any arguing or anger, i would really appreciate it and hey, maybe i could bring them up faster than you think." no. they won't go for it. if i started saying they, i bet they wouldn't even let me FINISH what i was saying. they'd unterupt me with something compeltely off topic. ugh.
GOD. i see now. it's because GOD is higher than me. he is bigger and smarter and more perfect. if i was GOD, then my parents would worship me, right? they would praise me and everything that i told them. they would actually listen to everything that i say. and they would let me do anything because they would believe in me. they would believe that i could do anything f i told them to.
butt in reality, im not god. and my parents don't listen to me. they don't believe me. they don't praise me. they don't believe in me. they don't think im smart. they don't let me do anything.
they're not tree huggers. they're god lovers.
follow the word of god. train your children to do the same.
i hate white people.
im not god.
im not a robot.
im not going to live by everything god wants.
im going to do what i want. freaking duh.
that's how it's supposed to be.
it is, you know.
i am untrusted, unbelieved in, and unpraised for.
i am unnoticed and unlistened to. if that made sense.
i am expected to get good grades and get a high paying job and have kids when im 30 old years. and if i don't get good grades now, then my life is over, according tomy parents.
if i don't get good grades, then i don't have a life.
i can't do anything with bad grades.
i really do not want to give into this.
what's my choice?
im nothing.
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| well, tonight was fun.
my throat is like, scratchy?
um, i can't speak! XD
: [ i didn't see shetara. ha.
im hella tired and exhausted.
this damn white man was all stuck up telling us to shut up. like wtf just leave if you're going to be like that. >:O
um, it's like, freaking..fifteen till midnight. so uh,
goodnight, love. : ]
<3^_^<3
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| Sa
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Thunder.
Shetara will be there! :D
<3<3<3<3<3
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